I loved, I hated, and back again.

theres so many famous people out there that I 1.) either used to hate and now love. or 2.) used to love and now hate. here's my list. make sure to share yours!

1. Angelina Jolie. I used to really not like her, I think it was first her hard appearance, she had that tough girl exotic look, and then when the whole Brad and Jen break-up happened I was definitley on team Aniston. BUT the more I watched her movies and watched her in interviews I realized I love her, she is genuinely a really good person, the work she does for charity is so humble, she doesnt do it for fame, she uses her fame to help others which many people don't do.

2. Jennifer Aniston. My the tides have changed, I still love Jennifer but it's very different now because she is in a comparison to Jolie and she doesnt do nearly as much charity work and its not that i'm against it because Angelina does it and she doesnt, I'm against it because she has a lot of money and basically keeps it for herself. I know she does charity she works with St. Judes and a lot of others, but I just know if it was me, and I had money i'd be like Angelina doing so much more for others. (Brad and Angelina were #1 on the list of celebrities who donate money to Charity)

3. Drew Barrymore. I don't really know why I didnt like Drew so much, I think it was from watching her in 'Charlies Angels' I thought she was really white trash, and well she did marry Tom Green. But I have LOVED the movies she has been in lately and shes dating Justin Long which is a big improvement, I love him! but it was mainly an article from Bazzaar that she was in and I just fell in love with her. I don't even remember what the article was really about but I remember she said this one quote "I can't imagine why we all don't want desperatley to take care of each other. We need to be passionately inspired by the fact that we can take our environment and our country back." that just spoke to me on SO many levels.

4. Beyonce. I remember a time when I did like her, I think probably when I was young and she was in Destinys Child but I really CANNOT stand her. I hate that she tries to act so humble and down to earth and then shows up in a dress that is as small as a hand towel. I'd have more respect for her if she was like Samantha from Sex and the City and admitted she loved her body and wanted to show it off. But she tries to act like shes not. I hate her music I think it sounds horrible and like noise. I don't care for her stupid dances and I think her lyrics are a joke. okay enough with that. next!

5. Jennifer Lopez. there was also another time when I really liked J-lo but the more I found out about her, I couldnt stand her. some might be tabloid crap but apparently she has this whole pride of being from the Bronx (ie: "jenny from the block") but she doesnt do anything to help the bronx, nor is she largely supportive of any charity for that matter. I just havent really liked her in interviews she seems very full of herself although I do like the movies she does, they are always fun and lighthearted (Maid in Manhattan, Wedding Planner, Monster in Law) I did hear she tips really bad at restaurants which I think is really tacky when you have money. you don't need to tip more because you have money but you should still be tipping the standards and of course you still have the right to tip vs. on quality of service. I guess possibly this "rumor" started from the reports of a horrible waitress, who knows.

6. Heidi Klum. I used to not like her because I think I thought she was a stuck up model or something but I really do love her now, seeing her in interviews and watching a few episodes of Project Runway, she's really sweet and down to earth and marrying Seal I think says a lot about her (marrying someone for who they are and not their looks)

7. David Beckham. I thought he had to have been full of himself because of the hype of his good looks and the whole coming to America to earn more money thing seemed kinda...bad. BUT I fell in love with him when I read an article on how he denied to be in certain ad's because they wanted him to pose sexy with other famous models his response was "i'm married" and in almost every ad i've seen him in with another person its been him and Victoria, which I think is very cool.

Okay I didn't want to end on 7 but I can't think of any others so...oh well!

people say I'm negative but i'm here to prove i'm postive

I Like...

i'm not naming actors, people i know, tv shows, movies or anything of the sort.

1. turning up the heat in my bedroom so i can sleep with basically no clothes (I would sleep nakey if I didn't live with my sister and she didn't come in my room every morning, haha)

2. walking through the rain (as long as my hair isnt an issue) this is usually best accompanied by really good music, I find Hendrix is a good 'walking-through-the-rain' music

3. reading RealSimple because I love the "new uses for everyday things" even though i hardly ever actually use them because they arent usually things I have laying around my house

4. online shopping even when I don't buy things, its like a weird sense of window shopping but knowing you can put it on a wishlist is a little more satisfying

5. a lot of colors in everything I do although I love the classical look of black and white

6. sushi.

7. chinese

8. prismacolor brand...anything. although I really only use the markers and colored pencils (they have pastels and such things as well)

9. the mastercard commercial (that is previously posted on this blog) with the classical music playing and photos of ordinary things that look like smiley faces, it cheers me up everytime i see it.

10. old gap commercials, I don't like the new ones they are all "cheerleaders"

11. really good cheeseburgers

12. facebook, email and text messaging

13. Ann Saks tile, its SO beautiful. (google it if you don't know it.)

14. diet coke, cherry coke, orange fanta, peach fresca and sprite.

15. massages

16. getting my haircut at Seven7 (hair salon in Seattle)

17. design and art in all forms.

18. Seattle as a whole from downtown to belltown from ballard to freemont from wallingford to pioneer square and so on

19. travel, i just wish i could do it more time and money doesnt allow me to :(

20. movies and music

SHARE YOUR LIKES NOW =D

Lyric or Saying?

WHO SAID IT FIRST?

was it the great lyrics that inspired the saying or

was the song a rip off of a sentence we know all too well?

1. Old Habits Die Hard (Mick Jagger)

2. Blind Leading the Blind (Mick Jagger)

3. Silence is Golden (Frankie Valli)

4. Love Makes the World Go Round (Madonna)

5. A Change is Gonna Come (Sam Cooke)

6. The Best is Yet to Come (Frank Sinatra)

7. Hit the Road Jack (Ray Charles)

8. Kill The Messenger (Jacks Mannequin)

9. Lean On Me (Al Green)

10. You Can't Always Get What You Want (Rolling Stones)

11. I'll Be There For You (Bon Jovi)

12. All or Nothing at All (Frank Sinatra)

13. Let the Good Times Roll (Southern Soul)

14. Its a Man's World (James Brown)

15. I heard it Through the Grapevine (Marvin Gaye)

alright some of them I know are song lyrics first and some of them I know are sayings first but it's still fun! come share your thoughts and your lyrics!

I will say though that the best version of 'Its a Man's World' was by Christina Aguleria during some award show, ironic, huh?

Thing's i'm embarrased of but I won't kick in the new year.

I have a lot of things I'm slightly embarrassed of, but I refuse to kick the habits, okay maybe theres a few I should kick.

I'm embarrassed...

1. that I refer to 'Friends' in my daily life so often it's as if they are my real life friends.

2. that I love watching 'Sabrina the Teenage Witch' I know its for the younger than me generation but I find it very entertaining and I always wish I could be a witch like her and just *zap* for everything I want

3. that I sweat and pant walking up some of the big Seattle hills, but before you make fun of me, please tell me you've walked up them because they are not normal hills. I was better before I went home for Christmas, i went out yesterday and it was quite sad. but i'll get back to my place again haha

4. that I buy great books that I'm excited about it and it still takes me way too long to finish

5. that I would rather stay home and watch TV and movies all day cuddled up with my dog than go out. I am a homebody, but I am content out in the world as well. I'm a 50/50 gal, i just don't go crazy being home the way some people do.

6. that I'm a designer that lives in an all white apartment with mismatch furniture. although, its a rental I'm not going to paint because then I have to paint when I move out and i'm NOT going to want to paint when I'm moving and you never know what happens in a year I may be moving I may be staying but eventually I'll have all the accent pieces I want to warm up the apartment with curtains and such. plus i'm a poor college student.

7. that I own SO many movies, some are just really great movies that I wanted to own but I probably wouldnt watch again, unless someone came over and wanted to watch them (ie: Might Heart, Davinci Code, Disturbia, many more)

8. that one of the big reasons I want to continue working with Habitat for Humanity is because the supervisor is really cute. don't get me wrong i'd like it either way but he is a very big positive :)

9. that I love watching Mythbusters. I'm no where near being a science geek but I LOVE that show. even the world war II myths to the corny science jokes and even the somewhat bad acting, they're scientist not actors haha

10. I'm not embarrassed of a lot of things, I can't think of a # 10 but I would like to end on # 10 so enjoy!

Merry Christmas Past, Present and Future

Merry Christmas Past I have a lot of great Christmas memories from my childhood, all the way up to my late teens but I remember some of the funniest things. I remember my dad buying my sister and I a Nintendo64, a present that was clearly truly for him (and which is now solely his, although its been upgraded to a xbox) and I remember my aunt joojoo had gotten us a game for the console so on xmas eve (which is when we do presents on that side of the family) Jo said she forgot the present and she would come over in the morning to give it to us (but it was all just a plan to not spoil our present, so she gave the present to my parents) in the morning when we got the present, and got the present from Jo, I was just upset that Jo wasn't coming over in the morning. LOL I don't think I ever told you about that Jo.





Merry Christmas Present This is going to be a bittersweet Christmas, well not even sweet just bitter. the first Christmas without Josh, and its only been four months. I think what makes it harder is that's when i would have expected to see him. I get sad about it even when I just think about it when I'm in my apartment, but I think when I look around at the dinner table and realize he's not there it's just going to seem so much more real than it ever has. and I'll be sad that he is missing out when we laugh, or have a good memory that gets created. But I have to just think that he is with us, and he will be with us for every Christmas, every laugh and every memory created.

we miss you Josh. we always will.

Merry Christmas Future This one came to me when I was helping my Nannie set up her table for Christmas tonight and I said something that was apparently unheard of and she said "one day when you're all grown up and having your own Christmas dinner you will remember how persnickety and precise I was and you'll understand." and I never thought that one day I could be having my own Christmas dinner at my own house. I still think it will probably be when I'm like 90 because when my nannie someday leaves us, then my mom or one of my aunts will start hosting it and then I'd have to wait for all of them to leave and then I'll be having Christmas dinner for myself and husband and my sister and who knows what else. it somewhat excites me a little. as long as I always have carrot souffle at dinner and hash brown casserole on boxing day morning, I will be happy.

I wanted to add pictures from past Christmases

but I don't have them on this computer

(my old computer crashed last year)

and my parents don't have a scanner

so you're out of luck.

Favorite Commercials of all-time

we always seem annoyed by commercials, but there are some really great ones out there, i limited it to four videos since you will watch them all they are all the best commercials.


i love this commercial, the music, the "happiness" you see in everyday objects its so innovative i love it.

i always loved this commercials its one of the only versions of "love train" i truly love however, i love almost every GAP commercial apart from this years "cheerleading" commercials, they drive me crazy almost as much as those stupid old navy commercials with the mannequins, even in their stores, they dont have picture of people they have pictures of mannequins, broke much?

now i dont JUST love this one because its Audrey, its good music too and her dancing is SO funny its from the movie 'Funny Face' and the full version is even funnier.

i always loved this commercial, it puts a warm place in my heart. :)

ENJOY!

I'm not good at being a twenty-year old

this picture was taken by my friend Eddy Adams, I don't know how he did it but he took a picture of trash and made it appealing. thought i'd share it with everyone :)




as i enjoy thawing out in my bed watching TV, working on homework, relaxing on a saturday night with my two fluffballs of dogs, i realized. I am not good at being 20, and I don't think its really going to get any better, I am going to be sucky at my entire 'twenties' and here is why.











1. i enjoy staying home in bed watching a movie or even re-runs of friends, don't get me wrong i'm not against going out or having a drink but if I didnt have plans already I don't panick to find them, I am so content in my bed.











2. I like to many "old" things. I'm more interested in dead old people than the people who grace our planet today, speaking in celebrity terms of course. but I mean my biggest heroes are Audrey Hepburn who envokes the entire era of 60's glamour hollywood and a 48 year old man who has so much power and security I will never met him, AND shouldnt a girl in her 20's really being crushing on men rather than admiring their politics? but then again I do have a crush on Jon Stewart and Anderson Cooper, its something about that silver hair











3. I prefer diet coke over a beer, glass of wine, or any cocktail almost any night of the week.











4. I don't go to concerts and I don't have a strong desire to do so.











5. I have probably spent a total of 2 years watching hours of Friends, no joke. I'm beyond obessed, i actually refer to incidents that happen in the show as if they are my real friends and real things that happened to me, you will hear me say "its like that one episode of friends..."











6. what else is common of a twenty year old? oh sleeping with so many guys you're essentially a whore. definitley havent done that, nor frat guys. i think thats actually in the guidebook and rules. you have to sleep with a lot of guys in your twenties. I somehow fell off the wagon there.











7. i would prefer having a dinner party and playing games rather than going to a big "kegger"



















8. i don't know if theres a real corolation to my age but i treat my dog like he truly is my son and I am his mother, and i do believe there is a connection between us. he understands me, and he talks to me. he is known to have a bad reputation but he does listen to me. i call his name, and he stops walking, when i start to raise my voice he puts his head down because he knows hes in trouble. its a mother/son bond.













9. I prefer RealSimple over People, Cosmo or any other magazine. I also prefer Harpers Bazaar over these as well, they have the best article/interviews.











10. i always want to donate money or time thinking i have it. I read an article in RealSimple about dirty drinking water and how a $30 donation can do so much and i litterally wrote down the website address in full intent to donate money. $30 isnt alot, until i remember that i'm no longer working and i currently have $30 in my bank account and I owe money to my parents. AND its not even this one cause, I want to donate to everything. I spent way too much money on the Obama campaign, I have donated to malarianomore several times, Lupus Foundation, the ONE campaign, and gave money to the american idol cahrity thing they do, i did it for two seasons but not the most recent because i wasnt watching idol that year. all this adds up ALOT for a college student, especially when i really dont work. however, i dont in ANY way feel bad or guilty about doing it, i still dont feel like i do enough.











i believe all of this is a factor as to why I am and will be a horrible twenty-something until the day I turn 30 and I will finally be at "home".

All moved in and nowhere to go

I just moved in this weekend to a new apartment with my sister; a 2-bedroom/2-bath right in downtown seattle, its a great place for the two dogs they have lots of room to run around and the extra space is so nice compared to the old 500SF studio I had before. a view from our balcony at night time, i'm hoping they put lights on these trees out front to give it a nice holiday feel.

the walls are white but not in an annoying boring way, it seems more consistent and just makes the apartment brighter. and once we get more pictures and furniture it will all be colorful and it will work out. i also remember a quote one time "i decorate in white because my friends are all so colorful"

the dogs are having a great time, oliver had his ball-removal surgery so we dont have to worry about puppies but they have a blast together and ash and i switch off walking them together which is actually the funniest thing you've ever seen. however when we tried to feed them oliver just tries to eat all of chloes food and so chloe runs in my bathroom (where i feed oliver) and eats all olivers food

the kictchen has horrible storage, all the cabinets are very skinny so we dont have any cabinets for dishes really so we have most of them above the fridge and then i had a little black wooden hutch that holds alot of the other dishes. but we look like we have TONS of food because the cabinets are so packed.

we have a great little fireplace, and the building pays for the gas so its like free heat! my cousin Brian and his friend Shane hung the picture above the fireplace kind of as a joke but Ash and I really liked it so we left it, we ended up moving the pictures below because they were all family photos and she felt the picture above was "sex" and it made her want to throw up, so we took them off she wants to put a bunch of PBR (cheap beer) cans but I am refusing that idea (she thinks it goes better with the picture) but i said PBR cans would be really tacky and the picture isnt tacky sex, i said to put little tiny tea-lights but then she thinks thats like there is fire going up her crotch -- haha so i guess we'll figure SOMETHING out lol

and here is just a shot of my bedroom with the two dogs, the curtains came out really weird in this photo (i have a really crappy camera) but my window looks out onto the courtyard/pool and we are on the first floor so anyone can look in so i will just keep those curtains closed pretty much all the time. by the way thats my dog oliver on the ground, but thats his tail not his head LOL and thats my sisters dog, Chloe sitting on the bed shes small and blends in with my bedding a little too much lol

I've been a bad blogger lately.

oops, life gets busy and I apparently forget about my poor little blog, I used to always update it at work but now I don't have those 10 hours of nothing to do anymore. I'm actually quite busy! I'm taking a 6-Credit commercial design studio (our classes are normally 3 credits so it's like 2 classes in one.) and its a BIG project, but i'm excited about it i know i will have a great portfolio piece when the class is over but there is just

A LOT to do. our professor is an Architect and his firm is actually renovating the same building, so we have a lot of accurate data and real-life scenarios which is really cool, so i have that (which consumes the main majority of my time.)

then i'm entering into two design competitions (although i will admit i havent even started on the second one but thats okay its not due till June) the one i'm working on is a 1200 SF living/dining room which is actually quite large, we have to design one furniture piece in the room as well. its just different doing a design competition because you want to win but you're not sure if you should do some crazy "out there" design that would really never be built, or if you should do something simple "less is more" like the great Frank Lloyd Wright said but what is too simple? so its a big fight with yourself on what to do.

THEN my sister and I are moving thanksgiving weekend! I'm picking up the keys next week and we will probably start moving a little bit before that on small things but the anticipation is killing me.

alright on to the real blog stuff.

what i'm doing: taking a break from the design world to catch up on the real world i have class in about an hour so I need to wind down so I won't forget to leave

what i'm drinking: simply orange with mango, its Delicious! sometimes i put tonic water in it to give it a little bubbly. i love carbonation lol

recent itunes download: the soundtrack to 'Shall We Dance' (that movie with Richard Gere and Jennifer Lopez) I really just wanted the song 'Book of Love' by Peter Gabriel (which i have to say is the most rock-and-roll religious sounding name i've ever heard) it was on the season finale for Scrubs and I fell in love and you couldn't purchase it alone, but the soundtrack is pretty good theres only one or two songs I didnt care for and some I really like.

still reading: Howard Hughes book, I barely have time to read it, whenever i do something thats not "design" i feel guilty because thats what i should be working on.

what I need to do (besides design): start going through all the things i dont need for moving. i could even start packing, i totally would but i feel 2 weeks is too early lol i could start organizing though

alright i'm off i feel too guilty for leisurely blogging when i have so much to do I think my "tasks" (in outlook) is literally over 50 and my "tasks" are all actual things i need to do, not things i should get around too. its quite depressing.

yes we can. yes we did. yes he will keep doing.

As the anniversary of the night America changed, the night people danced in the streets, the night I smiled and cried as I drove home listening to Obama on NPR as he won the 2008 presidential election. This anniversary reminds me of the whole campaign I softly forgot about as the days past after his inauguration. It seemed on January 20th 2009 that my job was done and the time I spent on the campaign was more than memorable and as I sat back and let Obama make the good decisions I knew he would make, I always felt satisfied. The critics came in and watched his first 100 days closely, then nitpicked every word he said, passed judgment on him for being human and saying things we all thought and agreed with, just didn’t want our president saying them I suppose. for god sakes the critics, who lets face it are just the republicans, the GOP, the party who put Nixon in office, and furthermore put Gerald Ford in office only to pardon Nixon and leave the nation in question for years, heck decades to come. These same people actually criticize Obama for swatting a fly in a meeting, saying that Kanye West was an asshole when he interrupted Taylor Swifts speech to say “no you shouldn’t have gotten it, beyonce should have.” And for insulting him and saying his daughters got special treatment by getting the swine flu vaccine 2-3 weeks after it became available, even though there were no “droughts” of the vaccine in D.C. these critics make me laugh, they have to dig so deep to make him look bad, to be able to have a negative thing to say about him, and it really all is pathetic. Because I don’t care if he swatted a fly, or said a bad word because what I care about, is what he already did. His campaign was more important than almost anything he can do in office. Its repeated a thousand times to hear about his impressive campaign, the grassroots involvement was something you’ve never seen before, you know the story. But if you weren’t there, maybe you don’t understand. When I look back on the campaign, it was magical time. I stood in lines just to hear him speak, I spent hundreds of dollars to aid the campaign and to be able to wear a button and a t-shirt – and not only to wear it but to hear people say things like “I like your shirt” or “yes we can” when they passed me by wearing it. to be in a stadium full of thousands of people chanting “yes we can” gives you goosebumps, makes you smile, makes you wanna cry, it was something I’ll never forget. To know that I stood in the cold outside safeway to register voters, to know that I was a delegate, and I went to the meetings and I voted not just for Obama but for the people who were going to be there to represent him. To know that when I saw that number on the news for how many delegates he had, to know that I was one of those numbers. That’s something not a lot of people can say, I can truly say that I feel that I had a personal impact on this campaign. And I don’t follow Obama today blindly, although I don’t watch CNN and read the headlines quite as dedicated as I was during the campaign, I feel now that I put the right person in office and I trust his decisions and I trust the man and when he makes a mistake I actually find it endearing because his mistakes have not been those of Truman, Nixon or even Clinton but mistakes of human nature. To know that my president is real and seems less like a sleezy politican, means so much, and entrusts so much to me.





However, to those critics out there who say that he isn’t up to his campaign promises, I like to ask you, what were his campaign promises? Health care reform? Working on our environmental issues? Helping the economy? Building ties internationally? Because all of those issues are being addressed. I don’t want to make the list but you can check http://www.politifact.com/truth-o-meter/promises/rulings/promise-kept/ which is a non-partisan website tracking his campaign promises. But the one thing I want to point out on top of everything is that Obama was also blindsided with issues he didn’t know he was going to have to deal with. Issues that arose with the automobile industry, and the banks and these issues postponed and stalled the issues he had on his campaign platform, and beyond that. He is working for you and he always has been. It has only been a year, just wait and see what he can do in 4 years, and definitely what he can do in 8 years.

words are just words, lets see what mine will mean today.

Words are words lets see what mine will mean today
1. I love my dog, Oliver more than life itself. Everyone was really against me getting a dog since I live in the city, the added expenses that could occur etc etc but all these people who were against me getting a dog were not really dog lovers and I emailed my Uncle Brian and I sent him a picture right before I got oliver and I hadn’t quite told everyone yet (but I knew he would get it.) and I don’t remember the story exactly (you might have to correct me Brian lol) but something about being a poor college student but you had your dog and that was one of the best times of your life. It was awhile ago I don’t remember the story so well haha.

2. Its 3am and I can’t sleep. No reason at all. Although there is a stingy in my big toe on my left foot and its bothering me.

3. I also have a recovering blister on my pinky toe (left foot) a big blister on my heel (left foot) and now this cut on my big toe (left foot.) my left foot is in big trouble right now.

4. I love the show ‘friends’ I can watch every episode over and over and over, no show will ever beat what this show is.

5. I’m no longer working it feels liberating I was so swamped and stressed working full-time and going to school full-time, and I’m taking advantage of the free-time by entering into two design competitions (one is a scholarship but both have cash prizes) and I’m also going to start working habitat for humanity – I’m stoked!

6. I am becoming increasingly inspired by my career choice as each day goes by, my classes this quarter are beyond amazing and I’m learning so much this quarter I feel almost more than I’ve learned the last two years I’ve been here.

7. I do get nervous that by graduating so young starting my career at 21 with no desire to ever own my firm and there wouldn’t really be any promotion in this career field that I might feel trapped later on but I figure that’s when you branch from project to project I someday hope to work on hospitals and I doubt that will happen right away and then I’m going to be a big part of sustainability

8. I was just watching this documentary on HBO about the Obama campaign – that was such an inspiring time, they showed the speech that inspired the ‘yes we can’ video from will.i.am and really the main slogan of the campaign and I was almost reciting along with him and it was just so cool to think that I was there, I was a part of it, I was at the rallys, I stood in long lines, I saw Obama in person twice, I was a delegate although I love displaying all my stuff I’m thinking I want to start boxing some of my buttons up so I don’t loose them. I have some really cool buttons – a lady offered me like $50 for one of my buttons once. (I think it was $50 I feel like I’m exzaggerating but maybe not – jo do you remember that lady?)

9. We found a new apartment that I’m in love with! I cant wait to move just 3 more weeks. It is such a cool apartment, we have a balcony and a second patio that has our own private entrance to the pool and to the parking garage. We have built-in shelves, fireplace and a lot of other cool features. I’m stoked to move

10. Especially since ash snores, earlier I tried throwing things at her but that didn’t do anything, so I poked my finger at her head until it moved but it would just roll back and then I remember she had snore strips but when I found them they were like throat strips (those strips that melt on your tounge) no idea how those work/help but I didn’t try them on her I thought she might choke in her sleep

11. She just laughed in her sleep

12. Oh and earlier just before bed she reminded me about calling the vet to get an appointment for Oliver’s balls to get chopped off (I use the word balls for a specific reason.) she then says “yeah they might ask you to measure them” “what?!” then we both started laughing hysterically
13. I don’t feel good about ending on number 13 but I don’t like 12 any better and this is why Louie/Louie is soo right about the disadvantages of numbering you’re list. Dern.

14. What is the different between dern and darn, seriously?

15. I’m watching ‘friends’ and Rachel has been for a couple episodes now dying for Joshua to ask her out (season 4) and he finally asks her out and she had just agreed to take her boss’ niece out on the same night. This totally sucks, you cant tell your boss ‘no, he asked me out’ but that’s truly the kind of thing that could totally change your life.

16. If you didn’t notice I’m keeping the list going

17. Back to 15, when I like a guy it never really goes away until I try it out – I may stop talking to him and liking him so much but he’s always gonna be someone who pops in my mind when im single

18. I am dying for some sushi, this place in Bellevue is AMAZING they a house roll that has apple in it, which sounds weird I know, but its really good. my friend An took me out for sushi once and he’s from Japan and I’m used to restaurants with the conveyer belts and I can see what im grabbing – and we went to a menu place so I just told him to order whatever cause I didn’t really know – and I think that’s why I really like sushi! Its so adventurous! I will try anything now, I was reluctant at first but I said ‘fine I’ll just try a California roll’ and then I just dug in. anyone who hasn’t tried sushi yet, start with conveyer belt sushi it will totally help you when you see it because it looks delicious and theres always gyoza and non-sushi, non-raw food available

19. We once went to sushi and they had a house dessert that was basically apple pie in an egg roll but we didn’t see the little note/sign and we grabbed though pour teriyaki and soy sauce on it – didn’t taste quite good. awesome idea though.

20. Yay I made it to 20. Which is also my age. Which is also my birthday. The end.

Fashion-Police.

Beware. this will be my first really bitchy post, it will be superficial, a little shallow and even maybe politically incorrect.





I have a HUGE issue with people who do not dress for their body type, I havent really noticed it with guys, usually just girls and thats when its worse.





I know the shorts are cute on the model, the mannequin and even your best friend, but no one wants to see your cottage cheese thighs, and the cute guy you just tried to flirt with, probably would have loved to go out with you if it wasnt for the gross-ness going on south.





when you have really big boobs, you don't need to accentuate them and make them look even bigger. things like tube tops dont look good, cleavage and tube tops are a no. and everyone is just scared the top is going to fall down, but thats probably your thought process, so nevermind.





if you have a belly, its not the worst thing there are alot of things you can wear that can cover it up or make it less noticeable, dresses are great, flowly tops and tank tops are fine. BUT you cannot get away with wearing a really tight low cut shirt thinking all the attention will go to your boobs. we will notice the belly. and it looks gross.





i know your trying to look cute and dressed up by wearing heels. but by wearing strappy sling back heels, you know JCpenny "dress" shows that your supposed to wear to weddings. those do NOT belong with a pant suit.








and heels do NOT belong with any kind of yoga or sweat style pants or shorts. lounge wear requires lounge shoes, flip flops are stylish for this. Victoria Beckham does it, you can too.








one thing that angers me more than anything else. the muffin top. i know the jeans are super cute, they make your butt look high and rock hard, but your not comfortable with your fat hanging out over your jeans and neither are we. wear pants that fit, please and thank you.








i know you want to be "in" when it comes to fashion. skinny jeans are very popular right now, but the one thing thats great about fashion is that they are usually pretty practical when it comes to naming products. the skinny jeans are for skinny people. i can't wear them and neither should you, the skinny jeans are for no-tummy, no-hips, no-butt kind of people. but don't worry because our ass looks better in regular jeans, so show that off instead.











you don't have to be a fashion monger, police or even stylist. when you look in the mirror you shouldnt want to throw up or think "people wont notice that"so follow these few, harsh, guides and no one will know the difference. hide your insecurities, don't flaunt them.

have a terrific day.

I wish i was...

I wish i was...

1. a coffee drinker, they seem to have the funnest time at coffee shops, they really get gratification out of coffee, its sincere when they say "lets grab a cup of coffee..." coffee dates are real to them.

2. a runner, "those" people cough cough jojo cough cough again get so much graitfication out of running, they stay in great shape and the idea always seems like fun

3. someone who worked in greenpeace or the peace corps - i don't have the oppurtunity to do such things, my life is taking me elsewhere but i have a few friends doing it and it just seems so awesome to get to travel the world and make a difference while doing it, ah heaven.

4. someone who was in a real protest like the WTO riots, i would have loved to be there, as scary as it was.

5. someone who bought bread and pastries from the local bakery on a weekly basis. everytime i go into Macrina i think about this, and i do love speciality breads and pastries but i just never see myself really doing it. its probably the poor college kid thing.

6. someone who made real meals. i honestly dont eat meals i eat random meals that are really just larger snacks, even though i can cook.

7. a biker. i want to be a biker SO bad, haha, but i could never be a biker in seattle its so intense and there are so many hills. the bikers are savages.

8. someone who liked tea, tea always sounds so nice and relaxing but i honestly and literally gag when i drink tea. it cannot touch my throat. sad news.

9. someone who could throw together a cute outfit in 5 seconds. but no, it takes me hours to get a cute outfit, otherwise i just look like a bum, which is normally what my look is. haha.

10. 21. now the reason is for drinking, but not in a "i want to buy booze and get faded all the time" I get so upset when i get asked out for drinks and I can't go; work-related things where i can get to know the bosses and maybe progress my future at the company. but no, i have to admit that i'm too young and I can't haha

100 things I would rather be doing

I am at work right now, and it is SO dead, I am so bored but I'm not allowed to do anything (read, use my Ipod, I'm not even supposed to net-surf but of course I do.) so here I go. 100 things I would rather be doing than sitting at our sales desk.

1. laying in bed doing nothing
2. playing with my dog
3. walking my dog
4. running
5. lifting weights
6. laying in a sauna
7. working out
8. sitting in a lecture class
9. kayaking
10. driving somewhere far
11. standing outside in the cold rain
12. vommitting, at least my mind would be preoccupied.
13. tryign to read German Philosophy
14. drafting a floor plan by hand
15. intense algebra
16. geometry
17. trigonometry
18. trying to learn french
19. trying to learn spanish
20. trying to learn italian
21. trying to learn arabic
22. having a baby
23. arguing politics
24. reading a book about George Bush
25. listening to George Bush try and sound intelligent
26. trying to cut wood - i was never good at it
27. eating raw chicken
28. getting a cavity filled
29. drinking coffee - i hate coffee
30. answer phones in the office
31. cleaning up horse shit
32. waiting in line at the airport
33. having a physical exam
34. getting a bone marrow biopsy
35. cleaning my apartment
36. brushing my teeth
37. riding a horse - i hate horses
38. wearing a poncho
39. getting electricuted
40. doing yard work
41. trying to start a fire with no lighter/matches
42. sitting in Bob Trotters class
43. sitting in the same room as Sarah Palin
44. sitting in the same room as Paris Hilton
45. be listening to Celine Dion
46. telling a dumb tourist how to cross the street
47. arguing with a passenger about a refund
48. at a republican convention
49. hunting Osama
50. at a funeral
51. stuck in an elevator - actually this is a dream of mine
52. in an anatomy class learning about organs
53. cleaning toilets
54. talking with ghetto ebonics people - they drive me crazy
55. sleeping
56. mowing the white house lawn
57. watching a horrible movie
58. watching full house
59. watching CSI
60. watching FOX news
61. going on a tour of seattle
62. in a McDonalds playpen
63. in a pigpen full of pig poop
64. covered in bird poop
65. swimming in the dirty cold freezing ocean
66. be playing with an umbrella
67. cleaning the windows of the columbia tower
68. cleaning all the cars in my garage
69. pan handling on the street
70. shaving my legs
71. listening to barry manilow
72. watching barry manilow live
73. watching neil diamond live
74. watching a spike lee movie
75. listening to gangsters
76. be reading Hilary Clintons biography
77. be reading Bill Clintons biography
78. be reading John McCains Biography
79. be reading the dictionary
80. sorting trash
81. picking up dog poo
82. stepping in dog poo
83. playing frisbee - i hate frisbee
84. working in a restaurant
85. playing badmittion
86. playing soccer
87. playing hockey
88. watching soccer
89. watching hockey
90. watching football
91. playing football
92. blowing up balloons
93. making water balloons - i cant tie them
94. playing dodgeball
95. trying to change my tires on my car
96. change all the lightbulbs in this hotel
97. be teaching middle schoolers - anything
98. be in the middle of somewhere where kids are screaming
99. laundry
100. putting away clothes
101. putting away dishes

where did all the good people go?

I don't know what exactly snapped in me, but something did and I am much more aware of people being nice, and i have to say, it completely makes my day. sometimes i worry that maybe I seem like i'm pissed or bitchy and i feel bad when they apologize and say something nice cause i always wonder why, which is silly to think that nice-ness has an alliterative motive.

for instance, i was at the grocery store the other day and i let this guy go in front of me because he only had one thing, a bottle of cooking wine. apparently it was on sale and the cashier was saying it wasnt the right kind of item that was on sale, the customer wasnt neccesarily rude about it but he was basically not paying the full price, he wanted the sale price, and it was taking awhile so im thinking in my head "geez guy, just pay the freaking full price its not that big of a deal, its just one bottle of safeway select cooking wine" lol

well when it all got solved, he turned to me and said "i'm sorry this held you up." and when i left the teller and the bag girl all were apologizing for the wait, but i have to say. i was pissed at the guy before, but once he said sorry for holding me up, it completely made my day, and for the teller and the bag girl to say something as well.

at work i've been noticing a lot of people sincerely telling me to have a good day or actually asking how my day was, or a passenger just being very grateful and it makes my entire day!

but i wonder, is it weird that nice-ness has such an impact, am i more aware of it now and more grateful or did something snap in the earth and people really did suddenly get nicer? maybe i look sad, and they feel bad for me or something? i hope not. but again, there shouldnt be a motive for nice-ness and it shouldnt seem so weird when people are nice.

but thats my new thing, apperciating when someone is nice and I, myself be a lot nicer. i want to make someones day. i want to save someones life if it comes down to that. you never know when you ruin someones day and you never know when you save it.

it drives me crazy that two people can be eating in a restaurant and they both get water spilled on them, the one person is perfectly okay, he makes sure the waitress is okay, "no worries" is his constant response. the other person screams at the waitress, demands a comp meal, is a total asshole; and he gets a free dessert and probably his whole dinner free.

we as a society reward bad behavior, when in life does that honestly happen? when we were kids when we yelled at our parents or said a swear word did we get a cupcake? no! we got sent to our rooms maybe with a bar of soap to chew on. but the minute you grow up thats completely reversed, and its completely wrong.

My New Month Resolution

who said it had to be a new year's resolution?

1.) read more often, books are an intelligent escape from the reality that you might currently fear or be bored and tired of.

2.) follow everything in Joshs' obit, don't get mad when people cut you off in traffic and one of the things i thought about when i first went back to work is that i need to be nice to everyone because a stranger doesn't know whats going on underneath and although it might be completely valid, they don't know that and you might have just ruined their day.

3.) lend a helping hand more often, there are too many times we might press the "door close" button on the elevator because we don't feel like talkig to someone or we watch the old lady struggle to open the door.

4.) eat out less and cook more often. i used to be SO into cooking, getting recipes and making kind of intense meals, homemade spanish rice and enchiladas, Manicotti, wolfgang punk shrimp tempura pasta and i dont know if its cause i eat alone and im cooking for one or if i'm just a lot more busy (which is VERY true) but i should make a stronger effort.

5.) walk oliver more, he deserves it because he is an amazing dog and his only bad habits or qualities come from me, but, and only real dog lovers can understand this, but a dog, and one like oliver really can change your world. Oliver has a genuine heart and I love him as if he was my son.

6.) clean more often, and keep the apartment clean more often. its just better fung shui

7.) save more money. I make $1600/mo I really shouldn't be broke and I really shouldn't be so concerned about where I'm going to be living when my lease is up. I don't spend my money on silly things I spend it on a lot of little things that adds up, usually food. sadly enough.

8.) spend more time outside, Kayak more often, however this is hugely contributed into how much time i have, which is nothing. i was really stressed the other day, actually i've been really stressed ever since Aug 20th with homework piling up due to some validate circumstances and i thought "i should go kayaking it would relax me" which is true but the fact is, is that i would just be thinking the whole time how i was loosing time to work on homework and it would just stress me out more.

9.) go home more often, this has already taken into effect, but I really don't enjoy my hometown so i didnt always go home that often at all but honestly, i love my family and its very important to create more and more memories with them, so that if something ever happened they can seem like they live longer in my mind.

10. make art daily. don't think about the idea, actually make art daily. it is such a good release on everything.

Are You A White Liberal?

in my cultural theory class we were defining a "White Liberal" this is the list my class came up with, I have now defined myself as a white liberal but the list makes me laugh, I'm not sure how many you need to qualify for to be classified as a white liberal but the ones in bold are what I view as true for myself.

1. white
2. has a dog
3. political (democratic or republican or independent)
4. tech savvy (has the best technology out there; ie: Iphone, BluRay etc.) however i don't have the best technology out there, I can't afford it.
5. Mac User if i could afford one, i would own one, i love them.
6. Sustainable/environmental
7. Likes recycling
8. probably has a composite
9. drives a hybrid card, probably a Prius if i could afford one, i would own one.
10. bikes everywhere
11. Vegan or Vegetarian
12. likes to kayak
13. has the best TV or is Anti-Tv
14. likes to be healthy (exercise or eating) i like being healthy, doesnt mean i always am
15. listens to NPR
16. organic or local clothes
17. fresh food (no processed food, usually gets food from the local market)
18. no franchises (grocery store, restaurant or even clothing)
19. likes to be barefoot or shoes with open toes (flip flops and sandals)
20. likes being outside i like being inside too though
21. usually campaigns for things; causes, campaigns etc
22. in a committed relationship
23. has a "partner" because they don't believe in marriage
24. Agnostic or Atheist
25. likes Bill Maher
26. Reads the local paper daily
27. read all the books on NY top 100 list
28. likes Feung Shui
29. claims to be Buddhist or follows certain aspects thats one of the only religions i could seriously consider being apart of.
30. "is always right" and will argue with you if you don't have the same views
31. they make smart investments
32. doesn't gamble
33. no kids
34. tree hugger
35. Wino
36. Beer-o (my classes way of saying beer enthusiast's)
37. sophisticated palette
38. posh home
39. likes hiking


so, are you a white liberal?

my werid quirks.

1. i cannot shower with the shower curtain closed, i cant even pee with it closed, pay attention to the next time i'm over at your place if i've gone to the bathroom, chances are I opened your shower curtain and forgot to close it. BUT in my apartment i have a see through shower curtain so i dont have this problem.


2. i almost never lock my front door, i have no idea why, i just dont do it. please dont tell anyone.


3. i love making lists, i will make lists when im bored of things i need to get, buy, want, do and if im going somewhere i make a list of everything i need to bring.



4. i hate other peoples mess, it stresses me out but i will let my own apartment get so messy theres no place for anyone to sit.



5. i NEVER shut my drapes and i get really upset when someone goes to shut my drapes, ive yelled at someone about it before.



6. when i do my laundry, i hate folding clothes and if i need to clean quickly, i put my clean clothes in my washer and dryer and they usually stay in there until i need to do another load.



7. i recycle EVERYTHING. i wash my yogurt cups and i always recycle ANYTHING glass..



8. i name inanimate objects, i have a triangle ruler named jeffery, a cermaic pig named henry bacon a printer named frank, it just seems so much nicer to call them by a name.



9. if i'm with people with accents, especially my scottish cousins i will pick up the accent really thick (and really well apparently) but i dont notice it BUT ask me to do a fake accent, i cant.



10. i always like my feet bare, flip flops are fine but heels or flats i will always take them off at any chance i get, i take them off at work and walk around bare foot, i know this drives Jo crazy but my toes need to be FREE! haha

Am I Blessed or Unfortunate?

Am I blessed or unfortunate to grow up in the era I have? I feel that at heart and deep in my soul I am a 60’s baby, totally hippie and all about the rock and roll. I get pissed because today’s rock and roll is nothing of the same, even the concerts aren’t the same. You don’t experience music the same anymore and it’s because the music isn’t the same. But am I blessed? I mean I didn’t know everyone rolling stones song growing up so I discover them slowly as I do get older; in restaurants, iTunes, friends, parents etc. I just recently discovered Rolling Stones – Beast of Burden and I wonder “how did I ever live without this song?” but its spectacular when I find a new song, instead of having the whole album in front of me or the radio playing it out so I end up hating it, I have new favorite and there is endless amount of new favorites for me to find for years to come.

But the problem that this creates is that I find myself attracted to the older generations, okay not the 70’s generation but definitely generations 10 years older than me. And I meet a guy and I flirt and he flirts and then I think “oh no, he probably doesn’t know I’m 20, he’s 30. Is that okay? Is it okay not to tell him?” I mean a lot of time in society flirting is construed as politeness and there is the breed of people called the “natural flirt” which I certainly am, im sure I’ve flirted with some 80 year old men unconsciously so I don’t want to just say “hey by the way I’m 20 years old and now you’re a pervert because you’ve been flirting with a child.” LOL I mean how awkward! It’s not like I’m dating these guys, but seriously.

I think I was officially born as a 60’s baby and just hung out in my momma’s womb for 30 years or so, because besides the new technology I would have been rocking in the 1960’s. My birthdate is not 1989. Thank goodness I made the 80’s I would die if I wear a 90’s baby.

The new trend that makes me feel old.

There is a new trend out there in the technological world, that new trend is FML. if you are unfamilar it stands for "fuck my life" i guess you could replace the F for many things like "freak, fudge, fitters" but in this case I don't think this works.

this new trend has been in a frenzy, I am so annoyed with it. it drives me bonkers, yes i just said Bonkers, I used it delibertly to pretend like I am an old lady annoyed with the kids and their new fangled slang. But I really am. everyone's facebook status has FML in it AND it is always stupid things. let me re-post to you what some of my facebook friends status that include FML are.

"round 2 FML... lol" this is in response to someone who drank a lot last night and is drinking again tonight.

"cant believe my DEBIT card got eaten by the ATM just because i didnt want to grab it back that very second! FML! too bad the banks aren't open downtown on the weekends!"

"Phone's dead. FML"

now in some cases, like your debit card getting eaten by the ATM that is a situation that sucks. BUT "fml" is hardly approrpiate when you think in the litterally terms, FML would translate too something in the equivalent of "my life is over, i cannot go any futher." so when you think about it "omg im drinking again" FML is hardly the appropriate response.

AND i mean really, when we have a war going on oversees, we have soliders fighting for us, people are out there dying from cancer and suffering from paniful illnesses, people are living on the streets, loosing all their money... "my phone is dead, FML" don't you feel a little...stupid.