Merry Christmas Present This is going to be a bittersweet Christmas, well not even sweet just bitter. the first Christmas without Josh, and its only been four months. I think what makes it harder is that's when i would have expected to see him. I get sad about it even when I just think about it when I'm in my apartment, but I think when I look around at the dinner table and realize he's not there it's just going to seem so much more real than it ever has. and I'll be sad that he is missing out when we laugh, or have a good memory that gets created. But I have to just think that he is with us, and he will be with us for every Christmas, every laugh and every memory created.
we miss you Josh. we always will.
Merry Christmas Future This one came to me when I was helping my Nannie set up her table for Christmas tonight and I said something that was apparently unheard of and she said "one day when you're all grown up and having your own Christmas dinner you will remember how persnickety and precise I was and you'll understand." and I never thought that one day I could be having my own Christmas dinner at my own house. I still think it will probably be when I'm like 90 because when my nannie someday leaves us, then my mom or one of my aunts will start hosting it and then I'd have to wait for all of them to leave and then I'll be having Christmas dinner for myself and husband and my sister and who knows what else. it somewhat excites me a little. as long as I always have carrot souffle at dinner and hash brown casserole on boxing day morning, I will be happy.
I wanted to add pictures from past Christmases
but I don't have them on this computer
(my old computer crashed last year)
and my parents don't have a scanner
so you're out of luck.